The other day my husband remarked, "Of late you've become so bossy." I told him I was tired of being nice because I never got anything I wanted. The kids keep telling me to stop yelling and I'm like if I ask you nicely you just don't do it, so I have to yell to … Continue reading So I’m Bossy Now
Why I Volunteer
So things haven't changed for the better since my last post. I'm still looking for work and resigning myself to the fact that I will have to wait until next year for something to come my way. When I feel stuck or feel that things aren't flowing or working for me, I do two things. … Continue reading Why I Volunteer
What Do I Want?
Today I find myself at the park again but this time I brought a pen and some paper so I don't need to struggle with the tiny keyboard on my phone. So many emotions. So many thoughts. So many things that I want to put down on paper. They keep swimming around in my consciousness … Continue reading What Do I Want?
Not Depressed…Just Melancholic
That much celebrated emotion of bygone poets, bards and writers. That very same state of mind that evokes the deepest of sentiments that spill over and create art that transcends time, culture, and every other tangible wall. I fancy melancholic. It is definitely more palatable than depressed, don't you think? Like a fancy mental state … Continue reading Not Depressed…Just Melancholic
The Rise of the Sensitives
I have known that I'm different for a long time. When the whole world is going east I would be looking west. I gave up meat when I was in 12th grade and also became a Reiki Level II practitioner. I dabbled in yoga and spent Saturday mornings at a home for the mentally challenged. … Continue reading The Rise of the Sensitives
Uncertainty and Surrender
For a couple of years now we have been grappling with uncertainty. That strange feeling of not being in control and not knowing where you are headed. It started the year we left Florida. We were supposed to come back to India but somehow ended up in Washington. There again I knew we wouldn't be … Continue reading Uncertainty and Surrender
I Thought I was Alone…
You can be surrounded by a room full of people and still feel alone...alone in your frustrating circumstances, grappling with seemingly inconsequential problems that no one really sees as problems. How you wish you had someone who would understand! How you wish you could draw strength from your loved ones and fall back on their … Continue reading I Thought I was Alone…
Step by Step Approach to Incorporate Gratitude in Your Life Every Day
You all know what I have been through for the past several months and I will spare you a retelling of the dismal details. In the midst of the dark days of my soul, a dear friend L called me. She was doing this exercise in gratitude every day where she would write and give … Continue reading Step by Step Approach to Incorporate Gratitude in Your Life Every Day
Revisiting a Scary Place
Can't drive, don't have a job and hanging on to the last shred of sanity. That pretty much describes my situation today. And I've been there before - in some other place, at some other time in my life. And it is a scary place to be. What's even scarier is the belief that you … Continue reading Revisiting a Scary Place
Slow Down, Chennai!
Almost a month has passed since I moved back to Chennai. It hardly feels like the city I grew up in. Madras as I knew it was a laid back metro, unimpressed by the hustle and bustle and night life of Mumbai and other cities. The city went to sleep at 10.00 p.m. like all its … Continue reading Slow Down, Chennai!